Sunday, November 14, 2004

Howdy!

Sorry I am unable to come up with a more creative title! I feel that after all the academic work, my creativity tends to dwindle.

A friend left a message on here saying she had to get an account to access this. If this is the situation, I apologize. It did not tell me that when I signed up!

This weekend has been one of the most eventful ones in my life thus far. My on-call time at the hospital on friday was one of the most heart-wrenching nights of my life. Many things happened that night that I just don't have the energy to share. It was so hard for me that I could not sleep at all during my breaks at night, and the next day I could not sleep either. I just kept having some of the images run through my mind everytime I closed my eyes. I am doing a little better now though.

Today helped me a great deal. I woke up and helped with a breakfast at the church. This was alot of fun and took my mind off of things. I also went out to lunch with a couple from the church. Both are nurses and were very understanding of my feelings. I did not even have to tell them what happened. We just talked about the difficulties that go along with trauma work. I am thankful that God placed them in my life today.

Well, sorry to be such a bummer. I know all of you are probably thinking, "Why would you go into this kind of work then?" To be honest, I asked myself that several times on friday. But, while I am there, I know that God has me there for a reason. To imagine these patients and families not having a chaplain there just devastes me. How could someone go through that without someone there, advocating, praying, listening, and holding there hand? I cannot imagine going the rest of my life without having chaplaincy play a role. I know I am supposed to be there and I do feel peace about my work. Some days are harder than others, but every day I do this I feel that I am fulfilling my call.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Welcome to my blog!

Hello Everyone!

I thought this might be a nice way for all of you to keep updated on how I am doing. We shall see how this works. If for some reason I decide to discontinue it, I will let you know.

I need to get some homework done, but I will update again later!

Laura :)

So, whatdya think?

I have only had this blog for less than an hour, but I am already beginning to enjoy it. It feels kind of like a journal, yet one that any random person can see! :)

I finally finished my homework for the day. To be completely honest, I have already begun to count down the days to graduation. Only one year, 5 months, and about 4 days to go! Pathetic, isn't it?! I guess that's what happens when you don't take a break in between schools!

My assignment today was looking at Paul's writings to the Galatians. We had to write a discussion paper on the topic of inclusivity. I had not realized what a hot topic this is in the church and how many different areas it covers. In the beginning I struggled to identify what areas I should discuss. It finally came down to highlighting the topics of: women, homosexuals, and children. I then went on to focus on using gender neutral terms when talking about God and humankind. It was difficult not to get too deep into my opinions on the topics. Although I am not quite certain about how I feel on some of these issues, others I get very fired up about!

Tomorrow I go back to the hospital to do my on-call time. In some ways I am looking forward to it, in other ways I am completely dreading it! This week it has been very hard to do anything. I am completely dragging and have had a headache almost this entire week! Maybe this falls back into the category of burn-out. Who knows! I think once I get there, however, I will enjoy it. For the most part, I run on adrenaline the entire time. Around 2:30am I begin to crash and have to eat something and have some caffeine. This tends to get the adrenaline pumping again!

Well, I think I will go and let all of you know this is here! Let me know what you think. If you believe it to be a waste of time, let me know! That doesn't necessarily mean I will get rid of it, but the feedback always helps!