Monday, February 28, 2005

Patches of Godlight

"We-or at least I-shall not be able to adore God
on the highest occasions if we have learned no habit
of doing so on the lowest. At best, our faith and reason
will tell us that He is adorable, but we shall not have
found Him so, not have 'tasted and seen.' Any patch
of sunlight in a wood will show you something
about the sun which you could never get from reading
books on astronomy. These pure and spontaneous
pleasures are 'patches of Godlight' in the woods of
-C.S. Lewis, Letters to Malcolm: Chiefly on Prayer

Isn't this an amazing quote?! This evening I was thumbing through one of my books of quotes and came across this. I had read it a number of times before but this was the first time I stopped and reflected on it. There have been a number of nights, especially recently, when I come home from an on-call shift at the hospital feeling completely overwhelmed with grief. Although I have tried a number of tactics to try and separate myself from those I minister to, it is impossible not to be affected. Although it may be painful at times, I try and remind myself that we are meant to be affected. That is what God uses to help shape and mold us into who He wants us to be. I truly believe this and try and remind myself of it frequently.

In reading the words of C.S. Lewis, I find great comfort and solace. I think it is important to be reminded of God's presence in this midst of the pain. Although it may be incredibly difficult to recognize Him, He is there and actively working on our behalf. In knowing God's presence during the lowest points, my faith is strengthened and nourished. Sometimes in knowing His presence, I may find emotions of anger, despair, or doubt, but I can still see God. This is all part of having an active relationship and deepens and enriches it. Through the anger, despair, and doubt, I eventually find the pleasure in seeing the patches of Godlight. It may be hours, weeks, or years later, but those patches are still found. The amazing gifts I find in these moments strengthen my faith and help me to become a better minister and human being. We are taught through experiences, both good and bad, and although it may be difficult, we must, at some point, allow ourselves to be learners and grow.

What are your reflections on this passage or my comments? Lemme know!!!!!

Friday, February 18, 2005

I know, I know, It's been a while!

Sorry everyone! I know I haven't done this in a while. Sometimes I seem to forget I have this!

I wanted to give ya'll a little introduction to the newest member of my little family. Her name is Katharina, or Katy for short. Her and Melancthon(my handsome orange tabby) officially tied the knot when she got her nametag this weekend. She is a beautiful white calico kitty that I got from the shelter. She spent her ENTIRE eight months of life living in a cage there. Now is that sad or what?!

The original Katharina and Melancthon lived during the Reformation in the 16th century. Philip Melancthon was kinda Martin Luther's sidekick during the Reformation. He wrote the Augsburg Confession and was one of Germany's most popular teachers in history. Katharina was his wife. I find this funny because Martin Luther also had a wife name Katharina. Ironic, huh?

Mel and Katy have been getting along very well. At first Mel was very upset, asking me over and over again, "what the &*#(@ were you thinking?" I swear he has such a dirty mouth! Now I find them sleeping together in the closet all the time! The home has become much more chaotic, but I love 'em both, even though Katy sneezes boogers all the time (I know, gross!).

Anyways, that is my little update for now. I will try and do this more often, but no promises! Please feel free to comment. Giving me some new topics to write about wouldn't hurt either! I am struggling to come up with ideas!